"I'm scared to say that I'm content and happy with my life right now. It's almost as if admitting that, everything will crumble around me and I'll have to start over from scratch."
Here are some facts about me
I'm 25
I'm a Christian
I'm single
I have a disability
I've never been kissed
I've never been on a date
I can't remember the last time I swore
I'm happy with how my life is
Don't get me wrong, my lack of experiences are not due to being religious, I hate that word, it's just I've never been asked. Embarrassing, I know. I used to think about this a lot and wonder if it was because of my disability, my overwhelming personality, or if it's because God's protecting me till the right one comes along. It's probably a combination of all of these things. I'm sharing all of this because in order to understand, you have to know the facts. Flash forward to now, my life looks something like this...
I'm 26 years old
I'm still a Christian
I still have a disability
I've been on a date
I've been kissed
I mouthed a swear word the other day when I was singing a song
I'm stuck in reverse
After typing this all out, I'm wondering how I've gotten to this place. There's nothing worse than feeling like you're not moving anywhere. I thought once my list of nevers changed, I would be happier, but that's just not how it works. It's a little discouraging to look back and see that I had it together a lot more a year ago. I don't know how I've gotten to this place. That's silly, I know exactly how I've gotten here, life happens and we pick and choose things for ourselves, our decisions amount to consequences, and sometimes we're left with blessings, and other times we're left with more longings. One thing I'm certain of is this, broken is when You can mend us.
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