It's always scary to me how our thoughts can take on a life of their own. One tiny comment, that's all it took. It was planted in my mind, and it grew and grew into a garden of excitement and hopes. I guess it just comes down to that one moment when your brain takes an idea and either completely dismisses it, or continues to pursue it further. It entertains scenarios and ideas in a matter of seconds, and before you know it, you're consciously or subconsciously altering your routines to feed this new curiosity you have awakened.
For me that comment came on a typical Thursday night. I was helping with youth group, and on this particular night, my little sister was with me, she's young, but she has this amazing gift of being able to see things with clarity and simplicity. Her advice is far beyond her years. You were there that night, helping out with the youth, you were still very much a youth yourself. You have always stood out to me, you're so much younger but the way you carried yourself and took care of your siblings made you seem so much older, like you never got the chance to be a little kid. Growing up in Africa made you seem mysterious and a lot older than twenty. I wanted to get to know you so bad, but I didn't know how. I challenged you to an intense game of cards and we laughed about it the entire night, shouting empty threats to each other and pretending to be mad at the end of each game. When we left I told my sister how much I loved you and how I wanted you guys to date, she looked at me and said these words, "uhhh you're crazy, he is in love with you. You're going to marry him." I looked at her and laughed it off, immediately dismissing the thought of this, but her words started something in me that I don't even think I was aware of till recently. I can see now that this was the moment, you know one of those crucial moments where something shifts ever so slightly and you're facing this new situation whether you're ready for it or not.
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