I don't want to forget anything, or leave anything out. It's all important. It all contributes to me in some way. I'm going to write this all down and call it fiction, that way no ones feelings will get hurt and everyone will still be able to look me in the eye at the end of the day. This is all my perspective, I could be wrong about everything. It's just the way I saw it, and how it made me feel at the time.
Sometimes I don't believe the things that have happened to me, so I write them down, that way I don't forget them, and they stay with me, the way life-shaping things should. I want to remember it all, even the bad. That way when good things happen to me in the future, I'll appreciate them that much more.
This is a copy of all my hand written journal entries. There's something freeing about putting everything out there. In order to move ahead, sometimes you have to look back and make sense of the things that don't make sense, the things that keep you up at night, the things that you replay in your mind over and over again, wondering if you did or didn't say enough...these are the things that eat us alive. I've got to get them out, before they consume me.
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